A Long Drawn Delay About the End Times part 2

 Where I'm headed with this is nebulous. It's annoying when part of this process is to get smacked around by the police. I'm kind of sick of this but they won't quit. Well, I'm done. I have all the answers but they legitimately have jammed me permanently. How cool of them. There's a difference between the inner and outer game and they've completely seized the outer game. So now I'm just frozen in time waiting for some expression to just accidentally happen. This basically never happens so it's not worth fighting it out. Well what I am trying to express is that, as I've kind of already said, this is part of the process, not the end itself. I am trying to express some form of an answer. They queue up some retort and a conclusion and of course leave me to respond with the answer. But they refuse to let me speak. The answer is really uh well idk. 

The stupidity behind this is never ending. I'm getting no respect. I'd like to just solve this crap and move on. The answer is not simple. The answer is right there. I know what's happening. All this nonsense doesn't mean anything. It's the result of years of me getting abused and not being allowed to exist. Really, what I have written is true and this is just a part of the process of second life, but really this is extremely ridiculous. There's literally a limit that is getting used outside my control.

All of this inner theatric isn't nothing though, but it's a distortion at this point. Life really doesn't need to be this scrupulous. Everything being questioned thoroughly and me having to endlessly replay the last five minutes or so is getting dumb. So with the distortions out of the way, things would be much nicer. I have an opinion that this torture is not necessary after a point, but will it actually ever end? It seems like they don't really intend to stop, but I guess how can I know right now. The only reason they could consider it necessary is for some formation, but there could easily be a dark side to this instead.

Formation isn't always pleasant. That is another hint that the Church might be vague about Purgatory while on Earth for good reason. Purgatory in general during second life doesn't exactly a thing. It's not Purgatory anymore, it's the formation I was talking about.

Will this ever end? This guy just swears "Everything is ruined" every time there is a minor alteration. I see what's happening... they're making a full on attack on every expression, and while I appear to be able to type here, it's become completely shut down unless I have some other way.

This is second life and the game has nothing to do with reality under the same name.

Alright well here is what is happening. I understand there to be some sort of general resurrection going on. Whether that's literal or not I don't care. That would imply some sort of second life. Well I don't fully believe this. But the people running my life want me to believe this is just some first life gatcha crap. Some sort of trap to be stuck in near the end times. No that's complete trash. The same rules would still apply as I've been saying. The people or whatever are telling me that I still need to do what all those people in history have been doing: saving their souls the traditional way. Well that ship has sailed. Basically another approach is that: well the end times are so close that the traditional way does not serve us anymore. So therefore we still have to prove ourselves to get over the problem of the transition to the next phase. No. What I have said regarding the formation, basically, over the next so many years of my lifetime, is what I consider to be true. Still the idea there is a disqualification process is outrageous and I hate it. With this end times stuff in tow then there appears to be a curve.

What I am trying to say is completely retarded apparently. I am sick of getting denied. Can this asshole do something else for once? Anyway, so the rules we live by are just a virtual machine we're all stuck in. I mean, obviously. The point I am trying to make is that we are subjects to a life that is procedural or whatever. I don't know why this appeals to me but the idea of going through life as if it were a journey appeals to me. And that we have many years to do this. Of course with the: this is the first life, but just really close to the end times seems appealing to and much more reasonable. So with that in mind, I don't make much sense. But I completely disagree. This end times crap just has to end. I think we are going through this and for some reason there is a system where we level up. Sorry, too bad. We're in a video game of a sort, whatever you want to categorize it as. Yeah and it involves a journey that never really ends. We can never out evolve our own life, so there is never an end until we die and pass on to the next life.

This stupid asshole has some sick delusion that denying me from typing this is going to actually stop me? Whatever.

So this end times stuff has got to go. There is not end times. But there is a second life, and we're in it. The Church isn't stupid. We're in a video game where there are levels. There might as well be paragon levels as well. But the thing is it's a journey and this journey is not going to get interrupted and frozen in place because some freak thinks we're all too good for this planet. Seriously? This planet is not going to die. And there just is no end. There is an end to how souls there are though, but that's not a global end or some nonsense. There are limits, yes. No end, but yes, limits. And limits don't mean an end. We're in a RPG as I've said. Some people are further along than others because that's how this nonsense works. But even then there is no progress like that. We can never out evolve our own life, but then again, we are evolving. The idea that there is a race is nonsense I suppose like there's a first or last. The situation regarding the Church's warnings about the end times is also in total disarray.

Well now I'm dead but I'll try typing anyway. So in this shitty RPG we have some lame ass end times crap.  Whatever... I cannot do this. But here' goes. So in this RPG we have some dilemmas and it's all explained by saying that it's just not true. Ever heard of Terraria? Buffs and debuffs? Well that explains this.

So there is no end or disqualification or anything. There just isn't. There's a wide variety of stupid feelings and that's about it. The idea this RPG has death and respawning at a save point is a complete lie. This is not a one for one copy of an actual video game here. I use this descriptive nonsense to get to a conclusion. The description is not the object I am trying to observe and then explain.

I have faced 1000000000% opposition in explaining this and I'm kind of done in case you couldn't tell.

The answer I am trying to get to is that literally we are in a second life. There are not rules, there is no restriction, nothing literally at all stopping or starting or trapping or whatever. We are on a RPG journey and nothing is even real anyway. It's all some stupid facets on some stupid journey. But really it's not exactly a RPG so don't get too weird about it. The whole save your soul thing is not what it sounds like. Tom Hiddleston time slipping to save points or something is not real. And if it isn't real, then it isn't anything. The answer is literally that no matter what, we have until the end of our lives and you should know what I mean when I say that by now, to sort out our lives. there is no second life gateway trap. There is no checkpoint or barrier. This is not a road. This is not a line crossing simulator. I just want to be free and have a life. I am sick of this what if crap. Does that make any sense you stupid naysayers? The longer this goes on the more I hallucinate and get violent seizures. I'm kind of sick of that.

So the final conclusion is that nothing matters but the journey. All the odds and ends of this stupid journey don't matter. They aren't the real thing. All people are at least a little bit destructive some of the time. It's true, and I don't really want to get fouled up every time this occurs. I've lost the conclusion because this voice crap hates me and the police did this to me. This fake self-sabotage or whatever is extremely annoying.

I just want to do what I want. .................................................. whatever.

There is no end. There is not a hang up. There are points of getting stuck. Well 

Alright so this is another aim to take me down. The idea they put me into the Matrix and to escape is to make this place real instead of digital because this is all we have anyway. Yeah great sure sounds like shit to me. But I'm left fighting these voice demons so what else am I supposed to do but defend myself like it's a video game. I'm beginning to dislike this video game nonsense. I'm not dead, I didn't die and go to the Matrix or something. The idea I didn't survive. Oh well. The easiest way to con me off is this death thing. They just love it and will never let it go. And of course the truth is complicated and fragile like everything important in my life now. So of course the more complicated something is the easier it is to mess with. So naturally they have a bucket of these I am forced due to physiological weakness to defend myself against because it literally attacks everything central. No.

I am done with scrupulosity. They are never going to let up on the denial. So it serves no useful purpose anymore.