Another "Should I Post This"
So another attack on my person. The guy literally demarcates my notes as a complete failure. So I change them up slightly and he ends me. Then he ends me again when he notes I could have just changed them in the final version again. Cool.
The guy is lying to me. Again.. there was no deviation from what happened. There was simply: correct, post, get frustrated, edit... like what is the problem. This series of things happens all the time. It's always trauma... dude why is it always trauma. It makes omega stress for me and the solution is always the same and then I get over it. I'm so done.
I don't think we're locked in, like I don't think there is interaction with the past life... well I mean it appears there might be and we have to play nice to get unlocked. But I don't really hold to that anyway. It's too much about the idea of being locked. Too much slavery. Our duty is to get psychological integration within the means of properly doing so.
Everything is all becoming: but wash your eyes out with soap and then we bad manners you about it then you do it again. The same thing with this write it down and nemesis stuff. This, unresolved, is going to get me into serious trouble. With: wash your eyes out with soap, the only way I stopped was to deliberately quit. Even if it was a good thing, maybe, I still very much needed to actually stop. I think this satisfies for the other things as well causing me to act irrational. A 98% individual is not required to do this mitigation stuff.
This guy doesn't know what is going on? You really think there is a heaven and hell going on? That the saved Catholics would just run laps around me and somehow I was unfortunate enough to have not learned and therefore learned "How to Avoid Hell"? No, this isn't true. There is no heaven or whatever. Dude, it's us versus us. This isn't hell psychology. So the saved Catholic know everything and so on. No. There is no one who is saved yet for the most part. There is a saved on Earth but we haven't approached that yet. That there is a mysticism that affronts us all, then how we are designed. To think some people are here in heaven and others in hell is a pleasing thought. But it's not complete. Those who could be considered having gone through the requisite procedures and are therefore in heaven already would then not need any of this. That's how it sounds. To avoid hell. I can avoid hell any time I like, but I'm busy and hell doesn't exactly just disappear. I want to write more but the powers in my life defiled me again. Cool.
Literally I am sick of typing. Okay, this guy still doesn't understand. He is still ask;ldh asdgfulhn. I can get past all of this to what actually matters. And I want to. So I might as well. Great... the day before the mastermind thing. Cool. I live in where things actually matter. So I might as well also be in that mental state. Seriously? Another affront? Excuse me, but I am done with the external arguing. This stuff needs to learn to stop arguing with me. If I stop arguing, then it will have no argument with me because it will be over. So I'm done arguing, therefore the argument is over. "You bumped your computer, so everything is ruined." The classic: if something goes wrong in the path then it means EVERYTHING IS RUINED.. no I don't believe that. It's like, being applied to everything now. "What if right at the end?" Also no, not real.
It's all a part of the process. When there is a problem, it's okay, not everything is ruined. It is just waiting to be resolved. It isn't ruining everything. There is no problem that is unsolvable which can be stated as there is always a backdoor.
There is no problem that is unsolvable which is why it can be stated that there is always a backdoor.
To look forward. Because you can't go forward while looking back. So the past is gone and if I cannot fix something then I have to just focus on the things I can fix. I guess. This is part of the key to getting out of the trenches.
There is no problem... I'm done. There is no soul. I don't care. I'm saying goodbye to the past. There is no such thing as a soul. I am not going to be encumbered by some personality telling me it's my soul.
This setup doesn't understand. It doesn't understand people are finicky. There was no end. It was a moment of shifting. People know? There was a moment where we all thought: it can't go on any longer, something has to change. And we looked at a date in time and thought: clearly things will be different after that. It wasn't real. I've known for years I was set in some form or fashion. You cannot literally tell me I've been doomed since birth. I mean you could say that, but then I guess none of this would be real for me, or some rail lifestyle has apparently gone wrong. I don't really believe that and I think I have grounds for dismissing something like that. The idea that this is true is very compelling and likely as not it would obviously in my own bad way it would be true. But I don't really think so. So were it not me doomed from birth, I know who I am. In so doing you must realize we are all doomed from birth ever since Jesus Christ showed up a long time ago. Not really, but I hate to use that wordage... whatever. But the way this system works is we are doomed. All of us. But see that's because mysticism sneaked in and starts rewiring our brain to think like fatalists. And then we start predicting things using the calendar eventually. So if we get over that, then it's not a problem. So as I've known I'm good to go, then what? Then I can be free to feel alright which is probably the most desirous thing. Then suddenly there's no more doom. The fatalism actually takes work to make go away. A lot of work. And for me I have to go full swing on doing only what cures this fatalism. And that's hard work. Emotionally I'm kind of messed up already.
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