Deep Inner Game Research

 

Deep Inner Game Research

My notes on the version of unification theory I’ve made

Abstract

The idea that we all came from somewhere is true. We were called out of the darkness and into the light. It’s said in the Bible that this is the truth, and that we were called here to speak of his virtues. I think this means that we need to have a figurehead for our inner science. We all have inner science, and it needs to be trained. No one in general is clearly saved or damned based on their inner physiology. They are saved or damned for their inner life and sciences that relate to this. We were called here to get along and stop all violence. For instance, to remain a heretic is to eventually become violent. This can be cured with medications and therapy, even if it damages our internal hardware we all pack with us. So do not despair, we are all fixable as long as we keep good will in our hearts. All are savable as long as the individual rests inside good will. We are all alive as long as we are breathing, and there are many signs there is breathing. Our hearts even breathe, so if there is a heartbeat, the last sign there is still life, we are still alive. No one is truly “dead inside.”

Section 1

Part 1

Infinite Energy Paradox

There is something we all carry with us called manna. It’s real; we all have this. In effect, there is a system based on prayer, warmth, cleansing, and meditation. In some aspect, all warmth refuels us in a certain way with manna, but it’s like manna air or dust. It’s a process. Prayer is healing—it’s extremely necessary to stay alive. It is even known to increase the speed of the healing of physiological wounds. It of course helps cure sanity problems too, such as the necessity for prayer in times of temptation—very helpful. Warmth is as such. Cleansing and meditation are similar is respect and of course help cleaning. Meditation is known as a quick step in increasing physiological manna hardware resources. It’s the only thing that does this. The Catholic Church has held the map of this for years, but you must be what I call “on” in order to gain from this Church or else you will get nothing. The most notable way to pray in this Church is The Rosary. It’s the most powerful prayer if prayed when “on.” Sorry, you just have to be on.

How do you become on? You use observing ego, the first psychological step. Taking a journal is one form of observing ego. But bear in mind, the Church again helps in this. But the more you practice the Church’s rituals while being off, the more stupid you very utterly slowly become. Be very careful with this incredible resource. My own Dad spend twenty years away from the Church after an incredible amount of effort adhering to its principles. So he was my guide and taught me that once the world takes the Church from you for a time, that it’s extremely essential. You can’t just be a good Catholic forever because no one is ever purely good for more than a hyper-brief amount of time. You need to be a prodigal son at least once.

So as I was saying about this manna, it is part of the solution to an infinite energy paradox. “Character is destiny,” Sigmund Freud. Did you know that with enough warmth you can prayer for a long time? But we all contain a certain amount of default manna pool resource. But we can actually only pray as long as we have manna resource. To prayer beyond this adds nothing and isn’t even prayer. Some artifacts add to your manna pool. What clothes you wear, the jewelry you wear, the Rosary you use – and bear in mind you cannot prayer on a Rosary not blessed perfectly by a priest. A good Rosary will give you manna, coupled with your own default set, enough for fifteen decades.

Prayer is for healing. If you think you are damaged or on the road to Hell, you must become Catholic, and inevitably pray the Rosary. Now these are not laws, but are something called givens. This is just the way your soul works. Everyone will pray in their own way, but you must conform—sorry. Being anti-Catholic is not a winning strategy.

Now with this infinite energy, there are two forms of energy. The energy your soul contains and the energy your body does. The only reason your body is animate is because your soul lends its strength in the form of energy to it. And your body has energy, like the ability to talk, work your brain, solve problems and feelings internally. Lets consider the term: gentleman. This attribute is based on bodily energy. It’s a resource that needs to be refueled. Your soul needs energy too. Sleep thankfully does most of both, but sometimes there are other ways to refuel each of these. If your soul is tired and you can feel it, you must attend Catholic Mass in the State of Grace—what I call “on” and properly baptized. These are basic resources—you cannot live life forever without these. And if you’d like eternal life, you must pursue these. There’s basically nothing to lose and all to gain.

Part 2

You are in my world now

Okay, there’s a lot I don’t agree with in the Catholic Church. It’s a shame because it’s basically a perfect institution up to the point of the Council of Vatican II. Now don’t get me wrong, but the Traditionals have it right. But guess what: the truth is that we all can contain a part of this Tradition inside of us so that the Church will never truly end. It cannot end because when we are in the State of Grace, we are all a part of the Mystical Body of Christ, and Christ is another name for God. Now I cannot emphasize this as all for complicated reasons, but don’t get caught up about God yet. God is a very complex topic. Sorry, but you kind of need to attend to yourself first before trying to understand God. And yet God is always a little bit inside of us. What I am trying to say is God is first, but that little bit in you is a part of you. So it’s kind of like doing both.

Remember, if you don’t feel like a possible Catholic and like, there’s no hope for you or whatever, there is a back door open to all! I’m not kidding. History has been replete with Christians who went through the back door at first before they learned to properly take the front door. You will see in your journey to pursue this. Both doors are plausible, so do not despair.

Part 3

No one can make you do anything

I’m not sure if I can contain this science forever. I’ve thought a lot about science. I have considered there to be no almighty god. I have thought about the universe and how it is a machine for pigs and otherwise—hopefully otherwise. I think we are in a bounded machine that might be infinite. Bear in mind, dimensions don’t exist to our senses except with Signal Graces. The world before and after us is an inter-dimensional plane that is not accessible without dying and going there. Now I have to be bold and brave to write all of this because this is a lot about my process. I firmly do not believe in the end-times nonsense. There are things like the end of time, but I completely dismiss eschatology (the science of the end times). It is not one of the most important sciences anyway. The two most important sciences is theology and philosophy. No other science matters including eschatology.

Now I’ve sometimes said to my own sister that “No one can make you do anything.” She didn’t like that very much and I know why. Because the idea someone can make you feel different or bad is ingrained in our defense matrix. We don’t want to believe we have control, so we make other people in control of our lives. We must unplug from this matrix in order to be free. But to be completely unplugged and stay this way for a long time is an aggressive cycle and when uncontrolled gets things destroyed.

I was once out in a coma, and yeah it’s one of my most dangerous things to consider in my life because it makes me doubt whether I am in Hell or still on Earth, if that’s what we still call this place. I had a vision of Queen Mary sitting down with me resting on left knee. She was caressing my arm comforting me somehow giving me life in order that I not die and was teaching my children’s Catechesis. Two angels showed up and put two stoppers in my ears and when I was cleaning my ears years later, two little stoppers fell out—one out of each ear. She was wearing crimson robes with golden stars on them. That’s how the vision ends. If we’re not in the Catholic version of the end times, then I risk nothing in sharing this. The idea of revealing too much daunts me.

Part 4

The power of being wrong

The most toxic power over anyone is something I call the power of being wrong. When someone knows better but gets attacked by this power, it becomes a struggle to even think freely. Basically it becomes a power struggle and the truth often gets left right there, ignored, almost indefinitely. It requires things like mantras and other anchors to wrest free from this. I’m not supposing to use this power, but this power is on the rise and is being used all throughout the world.

Part 5

The counter intuitive

About explaining the lasting point I've already made about there being no God. God is just a role to play by some guy out there. We were all created in some multiverse thing by pretty much the opening of a book.

So anyway, the universe and all of us just existed one day. Basically like being created completely fresh. The catch is that when I say this, they kind of say that we all had that sort of thing except for an immortal soul, and this we share with some past we had. I guess. But that this can happen again to each of us, although it would be like a complete wipe instead. Probably like going to Hell would cause this.

With enough thinking, one can actually go beyond this and recreate the past. And so I've done and related to us all, we had a past we can interact with due to our makeup and creation granted in our past we made decisions that created our character. But it was too violent and dumped us here without much regard for itself other than the character we created. So here we are trying to sort out our problems, but some people can't seem to get along with the process. Here we are trying to solve our problems. We're actually interfacing with that character and if we have high character we get all the rewards of high character. And trust me, a life on the internet or whatever isn't exactly the high character some of us are looking for.

Here we are in the universe sandbox with the gods of it all helping us along. We can recreate that there is no supreme god and that the universe had a beginning too. There is no god that had no beginning or was just accidentally super admin or some nonsense. If he even existed he also had a multi-versal past he had to solve for himself too. Good for him. With that out of the picture we can begin to stop pulling the: my god is going to beat you up for disagreeing with me nonsense.

Now we can begin to understand that the universe always had a beginning, and that everything did. There was just suddenly a universe. And we were suddenly just one of the one million souls created. And before you say there are one million required roles to be filled up, and that the soul machine some people call god is going to created more souls just to meet that quota, you're wrong if you think this way. One million is already a massive number.

As I was trying to say, the picture I am trying to paint is that if you do not accept this and understand this, then you will inevitably fall into superstition. And uncorrected the end of this is extreme violence that leads a soul to Hell.

So we had a beginning and so did the universe we live in. The reason why I know there was no place otherwise than this, and this makes sense. This is not some stationary place. The life we had before this was not in the universe. It was in a multi-verse. There is no place other than this. We were drawn here out of the darkness, not because we were getting wiped as of falling here out of disrepute, but to live among each other with our wills locked into place based on our character we created for ourselves in that multi-verse. It might not have even ended peacefully or with death. It was like some fever dream we had control in that ended with us waking up here.

Therefore it is reasonable to say this place is not Hell or some other crap place. That's completely stupid and basically despair to say so. Also according to my science that is superstition. And superstition uncorrected leads to the individual becoming extremely violent.

As I was saying, this place is here because the universe called us here. And it's reasoned to believe that some people have had longer times in the multi-verse, or were longer to bear before being hazed.

This isn't Hell and there is no other place to be. We're here, and there is only here. The multi-verse has probably ended, who knows. The singularity mankind faces is inevitable and cannot be stopped. We're probably already passed the event horizon, I guess. The safest and yet most insane times to be alive as the violence ever more increases but so does the bind that holds us all to our destinies.

I was trying to say something about the realm we live in. But I guess I kind of already said it. So that's that for now.

Part 6

Durable fulfillment

The past life we all had built us a body, and now we’re in that body. There’s no other connection between now and then. All the people thinking that there is some relation are completely wrong. Poor Catholics and their stupid eschatology.

Section 2

Part 1

The Way of the Inferior Man

I was wondering about all of this psychology stuff and it’s kind of weak. There is a lot to say for energy and a crazy amount of key words, well sort of. Well turns out it is all about psyching yourself up. Mostly pep talks. Anyway, what’s more important is something unrelated artificially. When it comes to what is true or not, it often goes on in an endless death spiral and it’s not worth it.

Psychology itself can be mindless. There is a problem and it has to do with perfection. Perfection is just something to master, much like imperfection. Learning how to be imperfect while still have moral good will is again something to master. It’s okay to be imperfect. It’s thought that the most together and active someone is, the more imperfect they are required to be. If you don’t have it mastered, how could you ultimately sustain yourself? You couldn’t. To find a happy medium in the middle is not possible and is akin to tepidity. Now I was wondering about perfection, and I am mostly referring to decision making ability in this respect. But perfection kind of explicitly means psychological integration plus high character.

There has been the topic of absolute reality which is real no matter what external circumstance someone might face. External could be anything that isn’t actually you. So when a decision is made, the only thing that matters is psychological growth or it wasn’t a decision. And anything outside of just that is not a part of absolute reality. That’s an example of this, but it applies to other things as well that are somewhat similar in nature.

Another thing of note: mortification. Obviously there are various forms of thing. Self denial or something is whatever it may seem to be. To resist the flow and to not agree to float down the river at ease. Here, I’ll leave a personal aside. Sometimes I think of certain things and feel certain about it. But as odds may go, often I get a: you have moved on moment. So in effect, I personally am not going with the current, but who’s to say. It’s always intriguing to study one’s situation and make sure all the ducks are in order.

On that topic I mentioned though: mortification. To really ingest who you are, it can be measured in how much is the current tugging at you and the like. I don’t really believe in people being different so much as people at different affects. I don’t see how everyone could be at the same level of feeling globally. If it was this way regardless, then I wouldn’t even be surprised.

There are times where our morality begins to fail us.

Part 2

Self Help is Over

Stay on your path. Stay on your purpose. People are still selling products to make this message clear to others. Is this really what the world is still made of? This is kind of silly. We’ve all been through this, clearly. I mean that’s how it appears to me. Then what is left for us? Emotional reinforcement and structure building, I think. There is a lot of science out there that is important and also not self help. But self help is over. We are still alive so we still need some things. We still have desires and a bunch of other goofy things. At least we still have needs. Maybe as a collective we could afford to be more optimal. Seems reasonable. Personally the core of my life could get an upgrade, so I guess that is something I look forward to. I might need a little structure along the way. I am pretty sure we still need other people to satisfy our eccentricities. I wonder if a lot of things are becoming para social. It might be that we are making friends out of people not quite within our grasp. The term friends means commitment and usually proximity eventually. So that is where things get weird I think. Acceptance is a vague thing, but friendship is a little difference. We are still rooted in the simulation. Remember the game: The Sim? Yeah well to be friends you needed a lot of conversation skills and effort usually in proximity I guess. Nowadays we can do some things remote. Nonetheless, there is still living and work to be done on all of us. It is a very big and often personal topic to address but this is kind of a beginning. Personally again I was thinking of perfections. How perfect are we? I think we still need to be clean even for our own sanity. Like, the question of what is important still. That is an idea that keeps changing. The idea of importance. What is still important to us all, and yes we still have the inalienable rights of: life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

a) Accept it

b) Run away

c) Fight back with your sword

d) Put up your shield

It can be said that everything has a half life. I do not entirely agree with this, but remember there is matter and antimatter. And these two, when they collide, cancel each other out and are gone. Perhaps information and data of this sort does as well. Holding two opposing ideas in a mind that is constantly changing bit by bit will eventually cancel the one of less priority, hopefully, out. So with these four things that I listed, we might only now have these in our external meta. We are changing, and there is the approaching singularity idea. I like to think of it as the idea that we are going to develop at a rate and as a species collectively together into an undefined moment in time. Then all our ideas about self help will be undefined and uncouth. We might translate all that knowledge into a different medium. So we might still need it, but it will be kind of gone and done with. Undefined as it were. We will need things to live, and as long as that is true, I think we still have needs. We are not completely needless if that is even possible.

Part 3

The Needless Person

After considering that we as people are needless. What we believe and do not believe is part of a network of mystical superstitions. The unbelievable mixed with its suggestive attributes. To get over oneself. Just type dude. I have to get over a lot of obstacles in order to type.

Type whatever I want. I wrote some journals that were six hundred and fifty pages worth of content. I wrote it in the style of notebooks written to someone else. It was quite strange. The purpose of this work was originally to develop the idea that there is still something left ever were it to be past the end of time. We kind of still have ourselves and we still make decisions I guess in a crude kind of way that still craves direction. So with that said we still want self help. With making these decisions there are a few things to consider: what is left?

a) Go toward

b) Go away from

c) Go with

d) Go against

And then:

a) Death

b) Judgment

c) Heaven

d) Hell

These singular ideas represent decisions and instead of just:

a) Constructive

b) Destructive

c) No decision

We have a fourth element introduced. And while we might not feel like we decide which one to do, we are still exhibiting crude decision making that still feels like decision making. I mean, whatever. The definition of life is: makes decisions. So with that, in order to feel more alive, make lots of decisions. The idea here is that we have life and death. What, are some of us dead on the inside and cannot make decisions? Then we have crude decision making enabled. We then see if our cold inertia can reacquire our life again. As long as we continue thinking and struggling we will make it back, I think. It makes sense to me. We have with all contrition: attrition. It is hard to do contrition all the time; it takes some effort. So we have attrition. But without contrition our attrition will eventually die out and we will atrophy, become mentally ill, and then one day die sooner than later. Like a premature death. We don’t want that. Death always stalks us when we are wounded. We have to learn how to heal and get back into contrition because that is where we fix ourselves. I was wondering about attrition, and I thought as a last ditch effort to just do as much attrition as is possible and one day you will break through and reacquire contrition.

It can be taught that we are hopeless and that we need the world to make us good again if we ever turn bad and that were the world to end, we don’t have this resource any more. But then consider the four things I listed earlier. I was thinking about this and I sure hope, even were we to live beyond the end of the time on this planet, would we have anything left? Well I considered that we still have needs. It does not have to mean we just find the fastest way to die when it all ends. And we still have the same basic rules, rules like gravity. What we must understand is that these rules are no different than the rules of a computer system. Some rules can be bend; others can be broken. So with that out of the way, then what do we have left? Death, I guess. That is one of the four last things. One of the things I mentioned earlier of course.

When it comes down to fatalities. I have barriers to overcome sometimes, and this is one of them. Collectively the idea that: everything is ruined. This occurs when we have something we are doing that is of chief importance and is necessary for our growth. Well then if we have incidentally nothing else to do, it can feel terse like we need it more than almost anything else. Then comes the fatality mindset. I do not really think it is completely true, so I do my best to dismiss it.

Part 4

The Elusive Obvious

There is a phrase that demarcates a lot of science, especially person science. It is the term: the elusive obvious. Something so obvious it can hurt trying to think about it because it is also elusive. It is like we are almost too lazy to think of it because our mind already feels like it knows the data. Also we as a species do not know everything for the most part. While that might sound scary because something might jump out one day, we can know everything necessary for our salvation. It is something worth asking for. Salvation I say because while we are born, live, and then die, there is the idea that to have a good life one must eventually face down salvation. We all need this eventually. The awful part is that when approaching this, one must consider it sounds religious. Well I am here to inform you that it is not completely that way. Unfortunately it is a muddy topic. Salvation is worth any price; paradise is worth any sacrifice. So I mean whatever.

Part 5

The Critical Counter Intuitive

I sought to mention that fruity idea but it sneaks its way into everything, What is more fascinating is the idea of computer speakers. But enough talk of that.

The term that I ran into a while back was the idea of the critical counter intuitive. Something that matches up with this is: feel and fear and do it anyway. It is also the title of a book. I do not remember the author’s name. To face off with this power and the rule of all our lives is typically a bad idea. But I am of the mindset that there is a new age we are moving into that is changing the meta of everyone alive. Sounds weird but it might not be true. I think I can back it up though because as consciousness evolves we are constantly being brought back to the idea of the end of the world, the end of time. Things like this. The triumph of the Catholic Church. The rise of the anti Christ. The fall of man. The ideas that we might change our future into a love and prosperous one if we listen to the warnings. The triumph of the Immaculate Heart of Mary. This is not just nothing stuff. It is very real. It is something we have to face. And I am sure many of us already have. The end of the world; may it is the end that never was. The era of peace is another idea as well. Some think this is years away. Probably not. The great tribulation. The thousand year reign of Christ. The restoration of the firmament. The new Heaven and Earth.

See? These things are certainly not something to avoid. This is big. And if it is completely true, it will change the meta and we are going to have to accept that.

Section 3

Part 1

Anything is Better than Nothing

It’s not over and I think, as I have said earlier, we are still going to have things like needs. It might even mean that feelings and emotions go away. Who is to say? But one idea that is worth carrying around is that our senses never lie. So I am here to express that we probably will not have nothing left.

Unfortunately I have run into some heretical doctrines over the years and it might be true. I try to hold fast to these beliefs, and what they are in something that I think is worth hearing.

1) There is no almighty god

2) It is us versus us

3) Mysticism is the warfare we all carry with us; heresies are part of this and we lob them at each other in ever increasing intensities—it is like telling someone what to believe

4) We are all numbered; as such we all have a score dredged out of a past life

There is an idea that we all had one life that was a perfect life and that everyone was ninety eight percent perfect in that life. Then somewhere in the mix, we had a life where we took action and built our character and were eventually scored. It is easy to say then that few scores are astounding among us all. The idea that we had our first lives averaged with our second lives, and now here we are with the results seems about right. So with that said, we are all on a rail, right? Even with sanctifying grace, could anyone even commit an action of pure free will and thus change one’s ultimate character? St Thomas Aquinas mentions action in his Summa Theologiae. I am not completely well read on that work, but I glossed over that section. It seems like it is something we do not have anymore. And then we can say that God is of pure action were He to will it, and thus through Him we still have this power. Well I am still of a mind to think that is not completely true because I stated there is no God.

There is a sort of god that we all carry inside of us. He is what we can call: the man. An abstraction based on the ideas of the anima and animus. The ideal people we have also inside us. The two ideal incarnations of each gender. And this god that is simply an ideal himself is probably the animos. The anima is the ideal woman, and the animus is the ideal man.

Chapter 1

The End that Never Was

So I was wondering, we are here to grow. Getting stuck is possible and mistakes can be made. Victories and defeats. At least I sure hope so because there are times where I make mistakes and sometimes I think they are fatal. But I might as well try to recover anyway. I do not hold fatalities in so high a regard because I believe these are not ultimate.

Well talking about this end thing, I am of the opinion there is no end. I mean there might be some hardened end, such as our own personal deaths, but for this species on this planet: hard to say.

1) Angels

2) Demons

3) Humans

I write this down to assert the basic idea there are three species on this planet of human type creatures. Nothing disorderly.

The idea that this is so makes basic sense.

Since there is no end, the last four things are pretty whatever.

Chapter 2

So is there No God

The topic of this chapter is the assertion that there is no almighty god. Of course this still runs as untrue amid some groups out there. The more that we reveal the more is seems unreal. There is more to learn collectively. Kind of like Bitcoin mining I guess.

Well whatever but I think this is realistic. The reason for this belief is because there really is no bas