The Bottle and the Wine

 Everything is artificial except my perfection.

Living a carefree life.

If everything except perfection is artificial then I don't need to click.

Clicking was artificial anyway and I kind of emulated it anyway and if helped resolve some emotions.

Since I am 98% filled up in my wine bottle, perhaps it's not all wine but the ultimate requirement was to be more than 94% filled up with just anything to be saved. Therefore I've saved myself. I wonder though that were it not mostly wine such as the saints might have, I'd be a different kind of saved although still saved like the saints. Maybe my reality was not prepared for what I am made of but it will work out soon. Bp Williamson said that we filled our bottles with good works that were infused with sanctifying grace. It's not like we just went to a pantry and did whatever we wanted. And to lose wine from ill works perhaps. Somehow this equation was considered necessary to get to heaven and not be bad. So were that to be the only means of filling our bottles and not just some hose we had laying around, then me saying I have 98% is from good works as I've said. And Bp Williamson again said we need just any amount in our bottles to be in God's good mercies. So even though it's not 100% it doesn't matter. I feel consoled by this. Certainly with chemistry we know not all liquid combinations are pure one substance or another as in acetone and sodium hydroxide; they both look clear when they are mixed together. So with good works mixed with sanctifying grace. Like what so good works and sanctifying grace; I mean some works might have been burned up, but the idea that you can regain good merits, virtues and works by being extra good after regaining sanctifying grace is real. So maybe that put weird things in my wine. I needed to be above 94% anyway, and I achieved that. All good things are allowed in a wine bottle and nothing else. 

I need to get my biology sorted.

The Matrix isn't real.

So were I to have good works regained and they aren't the quality of the original wine due this recovery practices, then is this idea complete about the wine bottle and the contents? I'm sure there's a requirement for how much wine God wanted, but the idea is no one can be doomed at 98% contents anyway. You'd have to have some wine at this point, and any measurable amount of wine is deserving of mercy.

I just love being saved but having the universe hate me anyway. It feels so childish and immature and I'm really sick of this. The idea of: you need every real thing to click just drives me crazy. Because that is just another requirement on top of everything else that feels artificial and in my way. I am saved; can we please just accept that? I mean saved, like, good to go, saintly whatever. If I don't qualify as a saint only because that's just a classification of people that have mostly wine over everything else in their wine bottle, then good for them but they aren't the only people saved.

I am judged by my past life. There is nothing in this life but the mirror of the past life. Nothing can change the past. No matter how much dancing a jig, pointless. We are our past. The results are in this life. So when I talk about the wine bottle, we're talking: the body is the bottle, the soul is the wine. And any soul might not be only comprised of sanctifying grace. So in this respect, my wine is not only comprised of this grace but other things, but as I said, only good things get into any bottle.