Flying Over the Mockingbird

This problem of the basic principles is extremely toxic. I am sick of explaining them over and over again. It’s so basic. I have said as much. Here are some of them:

1. God is not what we think

2. Our soul is not what we think

3. The Catholic Church provides blueprints and is waiting for us to just get it

4. It is basically us versus us as in good versus evil; there seems to be an underground war in efforts to assimilate others to believe what we want

5. We are all scored and done with and we all somehow know whether we’re each good or evil

6. There is no end

7. The day to day experiences can be compartmentalized into saying these are like Terraria

8. There are three types of people: humans, angels, and demons

9. Another thing we have are our inner resources and these resources are what we constitute as ourselves; these come and go

10. Our souls that are hard to understand are what we can consider to be our persistence over the change of inner resources and exchanges

So with these said, people can actually know whether we’re good or bad. Number five suggests this. There is more too that I would explain but whatever.

The truth within us is hard to mine for data. This is because we aren’t really loaded with truth but information is still there. What I will to explain. What I will to explain is that we are hard up in trying to understand it all. It is not simple. We carry the fundamentals, but we are very mixed up.

The problem we face is that this is counter intuitive. With there being debuffs and the rest, it is easy to get caught up in thinking something is identity meaning. We’re complex. But more to the point, the situation is complex.

I was wondering about all of this and I think I have some answers. The simple answer is never crossing my will again. Forget them and their stupid will wrangling. It is so absolutely violent that it forces me to obey. There are some things no man can face. And this is one of them.

Other answers are along the lines of the critical counter intuitive. These points are not quite simple for me to get. They are counter to what we perceive because God is kind of everywhere. That is because if not from others, we get personal tugs that we might think are from God. But we need to understand God is an ideal we carry around with us. The demons on the inside can convince us that something is from God, but they don’t make it real.

One thing that needs to be clear as clear can be. THERE IS NO GOD. It is us versus us. WE ARE COMPLEX, and God is NOT the answer. Neither are our pet definitions we redefine the Church to be. We are complex because that is just the way it is. The answers lie in figuring this out.

This is all hard to understand unfortunately. We have all been hardwired to believe in a lot of nonsense. But the thing is we are all on this trek in our own ways.

Well I was wondering again about this nonsense, and basically the reason why these bad evil people want to win with this God nonsense and this awful stuff about the soul and the Church teachings is because they do not want to conform. They want others to work for them and their beliefs. I mean it is not exactly like this, but it is very dumb. To WIN and defeat someone is entirely retarded. To assert the rules in a destructive way is kind of stupid. At this present time we are all going through this? No, people are still stuck in their primitive ways. It is going to take a big wake up call for some of them. The people that are ahead of the curve are still stuck in la-la land. Technically I am still stuck in this land too. On paper I might be more with it, but on the inside I am kind of confused. We will shake this but there is a point where the only progress we can make is when we are together in earnest. Sounds dumb and all that, but I personally know I am going to need some time with others to help with this process, even if these people are not the exact person I might have in mind. Obviously that is usually impossible. So with this in mind, some people are going to get stuck. This is a complex journey. To get unstuck is going to require some help from others usually. I mean it is not like we are alone. We’re not alone because that is kind of impossible. We have the three species complex running. Another thing is that there is something else important.

They don’t UNDERSTAND. UNDERSTAND PLEASE. Thanks. So anyway, the conscience is not what people say it is. And I don’t care. It is so stupid and convoluted. I’ve already defined it preemptively so just read on and you’ll see. It is more akin to be an aid to the chief agitator and HATES the unchangeable. So whatever. I’m not dead.

This STUPID ASSHOLE, I cannot declare hard enough. This stupid bitch I keep arguing with that’s KILLING me and making my conscience extremely violent to me and out of control… DUDE. I am just trying to explain something important.

I am getting beleaguered really hard by something. And it is NOT my conscience. I know the truth. What is the problem? I know the truth and when I say I am not crossing my will again, the guy exploits me. DUDE. This guy doesn’t understand I control him and he cannot beat me. This stupid fucker… This guy doesn’t understand and he is NOT my conscience.

This guy doesn’t understand that he is horribly wrong and a liar. Look, I don’t need him in my life. He rolls up to me HUNDREDS of times this way: oops you deleted a sentence and can’t get it back, AND IT WAS the ANSWER to everything, get fucked.

What this guy doesn’t understand is that he is not my conscience. I know what is going on. I am not going to be bested by some freak that says: “OH MY GOD that one sentence you deleted was the ANSWER to EVERYTHING.”

I know there is no conscience in the way he’s describing. He says he wants me dead but in reality he’s just mad I deleted a sentence I cannot get back. He always does this though, every time. It is a type of irritant that is hard to reconcile. So I understand. But it is not my conscience. It is a complex that is running my mind and it is hurt. In other words, I can reconcile with it and get it out of the hot seat. But of course it is the chief agitator and hard to atone.

So anyway as I was trying to explain… The conscience is not a tool. IT DOESN’T EVEN EXIST. It’s like the soul: very badly defined by a bunch of very dangerous well-meaning bad people. THESE ASSHOLES ARE LYING TO ME GO TO HELL. THE GENERAL JUDGMENT IS NOT WHAT THEY SAY IT IS. THEY ARE DEVELOPING SOME DOG SHIT THEORY FROM CATHOLIC NONSENSE THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND AND ARE THEREFORE LIARS. I KNOW THE TRUTH AND THEY WON’T LET ME INFORM THEM. GO TO HELL.

Anyway, I was trying to explain something important. I am free from their influence because their influence CANNOT even move my will and they PRETEND IT DOES and when this happens they go further into AND YOU SHOULD HAVE and then infinite INSTANTLY. It creates INFINITE problems. The answer is to never let this control me again.

This guy doesn’t get it. It was “Oh my god the day JUST ended,” and other such grievances. Now it is jump scare “THE GENERAL JUDGMENT JUST HAPPENED AS YOU WERE BEING BAD, TOO LATE.” Cool, another jump scare.

I am going to END this stupid personality. The shithead doesn’t understand it is LYING. I KNOW THE TRUTHS, and it DOES NOT. But it should KNOW BETTER. Anyway… fucking hell.

What I am TRYING to explain is that all this isn’t REAL. I AM TELLING THIS STUPID PERSONALITY THE TRUTH AND IT THROWS STUPID CATHOLIC CRUD AT ME. Duuuude does it no KNOW that I KNOW BETTER THAN IT?!?!