This Again

Well now what. This guy has stripped from me all freedoms. But he is wrong about the heaven on earth. So with that said… he has ripped from me all things. He doesn’t care. I woke up this morning and my day immediately went to hell. External influences, go figures. Now he is KILLING me again?! I asked if he was defiling me, and he replied with: “Then we will start doing so.” WHY?! Great, so now I have my life in hell. Well, they’re wrong again. I know they are wrong. When they are wrong, guess what: I lose all of my freedom to preserve my life. Of course they take supreme advantage over this. When I am locked in a cycle of wrongness, everything goes to hell, and they know it and won’t stop anyway. “You should not but you are going to anyway” type thing. They can’t stop what is coming. Again, now they are bitching about why I took something OUT of the trash. I know this is not a problem, but what do they go? “WHY DID YOU TAKE IT OUT OF THE TRASH?!?!” Excuse me, there is nothing wrong. But they don’t care. They never believe me until I prove it when I say that it isn’t a problem. I am locked into a constant state of this: saying something is not true, them disagreeing all day, and then me proving my view anyway. It just happened again about how I worded the last sentence… dude, it doesn’t matter. But no, it matters about it mattering which is the most toxic thing you could do to me. Okay look, this Heaven on Earth thing is all wrong. They don’t care. This Heaven on Earth is not real. There are people being saved before they die in such a way as to provoke a Heaven on Earth. But this is not what they say this is. Look, I have the answers to everything. This heaven on earth thing is not what it seems. I am getting so screwed… but the point I am trying to make is that there is not this thing as what it seems. I am turning off this lie generator right now. Now that it is off I can continue. It’s like manually running my whole life… this theatrical thing is not real either. Please stop. All these barricades to me expressing myself are just feelings anyway. As I was saying, the heaven on earth thing is not real. It is another one of those gotcha’s. Really it’s artificial. It’s like assigning a country to an area of land. So with that said, no it’s not global either. This guy is still trying to dominate me but I am not doing that anymore. With that said, it is not real. It is a prediction. There will be a time when the saved individuals with the help of the collective place on earth a… I just gained freedom to not do whatever I want. How difficult that was.

I have gained absolute freedom. I cannot do this anymore. No more of this. I love when this guy is wrong. He’s so violent when he is wrong. And I hate it. So as I was saying, this cycle of violence is over. I am not gambling right now. Matter of fact, NO. Anyway… no.

So as I was saying: no.

I just had to say no and mean no.

Wow, wait a second… this is between truth and lies. This guy is never going to stop lying to me and fouling me up. This is completely stupid. He’s getting me to do atrocious things in the name of the prove me wrong game. Over and over the cycles keep going like violence and wrongness and whatever else. No, I am done with these. But the problem is that he is affronting my science and forcing me to stop living a decent life infinitely. My science holds up. Every time he says: such and such was irrevocable and happened to your character, I can rest assured that it isn’t true. That it is a demerit or passive or status effect basically. I really of course want to say: debuff. This little granular detailing is really annoying and never true. To do the right thing comes with massive overhead. It’s so bad. But of course it is still courage. But then courage has limits so then what. He won’t let me run anything automatically, so when I go to run it manually, he stops me.

I’m done. This is truth versus lies. I want to quit typing, but I know he is going to end my day if I do. But I’m pretty much done with my ideas for this right now.