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Just Because We're in it for Ourselves

Just because this guy thinks he knows everything doesn’t mean he is correct. I had it proved to me God didn’t exist at like, what, age nine or something. If he didn’t exist then, he still doesn’t exist. I can’t believe this guy telling me I cannot have the truth anymore or some nonsense. Dude… whatever. All the stuff he is fielding me is trash and I am kind of sick of it. I just want to move on and get good. Of course this guy has the bulk of arguments we’re sifting through, but this is really challenging work. I just proved my science, and now the science is in question. Huh? It is clear that it is still true. He called it primarily into question with the: we’re in this for ourselves and if you don’t think so you’re likely to fall. Well with that in mind I could see that. But my science still holds firm and I feel I can actually defy everything he is saying, but he has said so much I’m going crazy. I think I can prove wrong all he is throwing in my direction. I don’t care if friends a...

Tulmoult

What this guy doesn’t understand is that he is not my conscience. I know what is going on. I am not going to be bested by some freak that says: “OH MY GOD that one sentence you deleted was the ANSWER to EVERYTHING.” I know there is no conscience in the way he’s describing. He says he wants me dead but in reality he’s just mad I deleted a sentence I cannot get back. He always does this though, every time. It is a type of irritant that is hard to reconcile. So I understand. But it is not my conscience. It is a complex that is running my mind and it is hurt. In other words, I can reconcile with it and get it out of the hot seat. But of course it is the chief agitator and hard to atone.

Flying Over the Mockingbird (part 2)

As I was trying to say, DUDE, everything is a lie. All of this INFORMATION is a LIE. Knowledge, a LIE. Humans are not meant to ingest this dog shit because all we do is use it to HURT others. They don’t know ANYTHING. They think the Catholic Church has taught them something? WRONG, all they care about it HURTING ME with it. So they DON’T UNDERSTAND. STUPID ASSHOLES. So now what? I’m never satisfied because I always get bricked right at the moment of satisfaction because it requires an energy that can be upset. I want to listen to music to offset this but my situation won’t allow it. I’m doing this anyway. If I play along with this plot even slightly any more it will kill me. This plot I am stuck in is designed to get me killed. I’m not playing along anymore. ANYWAY, so as I was trying to explain something. This stuff that I was talking about earlier is true. There is no God and the Catholic Church is a BLUEPRINT PRINTER, NOT to be taken seriously. They don’t care… but they shou...

Flying Over the Mockingbird

This problem of the basic principles is extremely toxic. I am sick of explaining them over and over again. It’s so basic. I have said as much. Here are some of them: 1. God is not what we think 2. Our soul is not what we think 3. The Catholic Church provides blueprints and is waiting for us to just get it 4. It is basically us versus us as in good versus evil; there seems to be an underground war in efforts to assimilate others to believe what we want 5. We are all scored and done with and we all somehow know whether we’re each good or evil 6. There is no end 7. The day to day experiences can be compartmentalized into saying these are like Terraria 8. There are three types of people: humans, angels, and demons 9. Another thing we have are our inner resources and these resources are what we constitute as ourselves; these come and go 10. Our souls that are hard to understand are what we can consider to be our persistence over the change of inner resources and exchanges S...

My enemy's approach is very awfully bad

There is something going on and iot sdi asdgfinadfgin. What I want to talk about today is basically the idea that the ANSWER is very clear. There is no god controlling this situation. All these stupid feelings demarcating this document as a failure are wrong. So with that said, I KNOW what I mean when I say “There is no god.” I DO NOT have to INPUT THE CODES perfectly to make it real or some bullshit. Enough already of this word play. So with that said. The answer I am seeking is basically that they are IGNORING the most basic will motivator, and furthermore keep poking me. They are demotivating me and then torturing me. Actually they are torturing me using pretty much every psychologically demotivating thing. They keep hitting me, getting a not real result, declaring it is real anyway, and then going at it harder collecting a pile of these unreal accusations. Then they watch me get mad swearing I’m just being whimsical and not effective. They SWEAR on this. And no it’s com...

Deep Inner Game Research

  Deep Inner Game Research My notes on the version of unification theory I’ve made Abstract The idea that we all came from somewhere is true. We were called out of the darkness and into the light. It’s said in the Bible that this is the truth, and that we were called here to speak of his virtues. I think this means that we need to have a figurehead for our inner science. We all have inner science, and it needs to be trained. No one in general is clearly saved or damned based on their inner physiology. They are saved or damned for their inner life and sciences that relate to this. We were called here to get along and stop all violence. For instance, to remain a heretic is to eventually become violent. This can be cured with medications and therapy, even if it damages our internal hardware we all pack with us. So do not despair, we are all fixable as long as we keep good will in our hearts. All are savable as long as the individual rests inside good will. We are all alive ...

Another "Should I Post This"

So another attack on my person. The guy literally demarcates my notes as a complete failure. So I change them up slightly and he ends me. Then he ends me again when he notes I could have just changed them in the final version again. Cool. The guy is lying to me. Again.. there was no deviation from what happened. There was simply: correct, post, get frustrated, edit... like what is the problem. This series of things happens all the time. It's always trauma... dude why is it always trauma. It makes omega stress for me and the solution is always the same and then I get over it. I'm so done. I don't think we're locked in, like I don't think there is interaction with the past life... well I mean it appears there might be and we have to play nice to get unlocked. But I don't really hold to that anyway. It's too much about the idea of being locked. Too much slavery. Our duty is to get psychological integration within the means of properly doing so. Everything is al...